I awakened this morning with the thought “Do you want the life that you have, more than you want the life that you dream of? You have to decide this.”
Of course, for me, the answer is a resounding “NO!!!!!” so I have decided to turn over some new leaves; to become more authentic in several areas of my life. I have decided to stop procrastinating, and to desist from wasting time with some of the idlers whom I know online. I may not like all of the things that I have to do in life (like starting my marking today since the deadline was on Friday) but I have to do them as part of my journey toward being a disciplined and productive person.
Now I know that I have probably done this before… and very likely done it here publicly, but the thing about spoiling one page in one’s book of life and in having to turn over new leaves is that one cannot be faulted for doing this so long as one is progressing genuinely toward some cherished goal. I want to make my mark in this life, and so I have realized that this blog and this site as a whole have helped me to understand my relationship with the Internet. I have had to admit to myself that this is my main addiction, this is where I spend the time that I ought to be writing my journal articles or spending time with my family members and friends.
Yet, as I think about it, I find that I feel fulfilled here, so my realization has grown to understand that while this site and the blog help me, some of my other Internet time is far less productive. So, my new leaf-turning exercise will mean that I will spend less time chatting and on my e-mail, and that I will rationalize my time here. I am not thinking of cutting back here on the GB site, but perhaps the rationalization will result in that; it remains to be seen.
Writing poems, stories and my blog have helped immensely in overcoming my disappointment in life. For me that is time well spent. I think that we need to turn over new leaves when we realise that our time is NOT well spent doing what ever it is that we’re doing. It does not matter how many times we do this, it just matter that it gets done. Thanks to all of you who have left comments here, or who have contacted me via e-mail or on Facebook, for your encouragement in that regard. I wish you ALL the best in your lives and work!